• expect unexpected white bird on wood post looking to the right water in the background
    Aging,  Experiences,  Medical Related,  Random thoughts and processing

    Expect the Unexpected

    c/w – depression, illness, cancer I have learned through the years to expect the unexpected. I have many types of cancer running through my maternal and paternal family. It was always something I heard about and knew about, and I didn’t know the details as much as I knew that someone else had been diagnosed and died due to cancer. I had a cancer scare when I was about 42 and had some scary biopsies, but it ultimately turned out to be benign. I considered that a bullet missed and went on with life. I wasn’t overly appreciative of the good news; I just felt something else I had gone…

  • good people white background two hands one male and one female with red hearts on the palms facing the camera
    BDSM,  Decisions,  Experiences,  kinks,  Learning the Hard Way,  Polyamorous,  Protect Your Heart,  Self Love,  Sir/Daddy,  Toy for Sir

    Good People

    I like good people and want to be around good people. When the past comes knocking on my door, I have never been one to leave it there standing on the porch. I have a lot of shit in my past, but I also feel that I learn from my experiences. I have learned not to live in the past and over the past three years, I have learned to place it in a safe place in my brain. Until now. My breakup with my Dom (first and only) has been a huge part of this blog. Our relationship prior to the breakup has been too. I write my feelings…

  • not like me white room and white bed with white woman on a bed laying on her stomach hands crossed brown hair red soled shoes in the
    Aging,  Experiences,  Self Love

    Not Like Me

    It is not like me to post pictures of myself online. Okay, so on this site it is kind of like me, but, the selfies on social media are not like me. For all the times I have looked at myself in pictures and rolled my eyes or headed to the frig for a cake icing and a spoon, you would think this picture would present a different result. Well, it didn’t. I didn’t run to the frig for the cake icing, but the eye roll was real. This picture, and more to follow, is a result of a very spontaneous “boudoir” photoshoot. My friends and I were sitting around…

  • working out white women with green halter top and green leggings stomach showing feeling sexy
    February Photo Fest 2021,  February Photofest 2021,  Self Love

    Working Out or Working it Out

    There are times when my day goes perfectly. I get up, shower, take care of the dog, do some workouts, and get my workday started. This is a good day. They don’t happen often. Most days, I haven’t slept well, struggle through four alarms, thank the universe that I pre-set the coffee, sit at my desk, and try to pretend I’m ready. On these days, which happen more often, I am lucky if I brush my teeth in the morning. I feel better after I work out. Whether it is yoga, or something more intense, I feel good. More importantly, I feel sexy. I have always wished that I was…

  • mirror image of breasts white woman
    February Photo Fest 2021,  February Photofest 2021

    Mirror Image

    A mirror image, the replica of what is reflected, or is it? Here are some definitions I found for the word mirror. Neither of these definitions defines how I feel about the mirror. Mir-ror / 1: a polished or smooth surface (as of glass)that forms images by reflection // She looked at herself in the mirror. Mir-ror/ 2: something that gives a true representation // the press as a mirror of public opinion I have always had a love/hate relationship with the mirror. Actually, that is not being honest. I straight up fucking hate the mirror. The funny thing is, I can’t seem to walk by one without taking a…