In order to be open to creativity, one must have the capacity for constructive use of solitude. One must overcome the fear of being alone.
This quote rings very true to me for several reasons. I have a strange perspective on my own creativity. At times, I feel like it flows from me like a river. Other times, it is non-existent. I know this is true for most people and we, as creatives take what we can get when we can get it.
February Photofest 2019 has raised up an old love of mine for photography. For as long as I can remember, I have loved taking pictures. It started with my first Kodak camera. A box camera that made a loud clicking noise when you snapped the photo. Waiting for weeks and sometimes a month to get the film developed and seeing the photos. Did I get the image I wanted? Or was it a blurry unidentifiable mess? Either way, it was exciting to see what I got.
Much later, I was gifted a 35mm camera. I became the family photographer. Slightly annoying to those that didn’t enjoy their pictures being taken but I was happy behind the camera. I still had to wait for those developed images but I never missed an opportunity to snap the perfect shot, even if they weren’t perfect when they came back.
Now, I can snap any photo I want and immediately edit or delete it. I like this opportunity. I also kind of miss the waiting for the developed photos. While the new abilities allow me to edit and stretch my creativity with filters and special effects, it also curbs my creativity. Particularly when I am photographing myself.
I am very critical of myself, my body, my face. So, the editing abilities we have now is a plus. Being careful to not change my look so I am no longer recognizable, I like the soft focus options to work with my wrinkles. If only there was a thinner filter! (I think there is on some software somewhere which would be nice and dangerous).
While taking photos for February Photofest and trying to be as creative as possible I found a lot of judgment from myself. What sparked my interest was it wasn’t only about how I looked physically. While that was a big part of it, it wasn’t the only thing I noticed. I wanted the photos to be different and not just a bunch of selfies. I wanted to merge my sexy self with my other love of nature. February makes it hard to get out in nature for me because I hate being cold. While I did it, I prefer being warm.
Creativity for me always seems to be a reach away. I look at other photos and can see the creativity and uniqueness of their images. Part of me fears just copying those images and the other part wants to copy them. Finding my own creativity is a challenge. I’m working on it.
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