Shadows aren’t always scary things that hide the danger. Sometimes they are comforting, hiding what we are all afraid of. Sometimes they are hiding what we do not need to see. Maybe they hide things we don’t want to face until the time comes that we can face them. Those things in good time we can face with goodness and grace and strength.
I choose to begin to embrace the shadows. All the shadows in my mind, in my heart, and in my soul, with the hope that by embracing them they will help to move me forward. That I can laugh with my ex-Dom and not feel that pang of longing and wanting and just feel good that the friendship we had may be possible. I doubt this. I doubt that pain will ever go away, but I am forced to laugh and work and be with him. On those days, I will allow the shadows in my heart to hide the hope. I will allow the shadows in my brain to clear and let me see I was healthier without him. The shadows in my soul to hide the thoughts that I do not deserve better and uncover the positive feelings that I DO deserve better than how I was treated.
The shadows that cover my body on those days I am not happy with it will be embraced and I will not feel bad for allowing myself to feel what I am feeling. When those they move left or right, up or down, I will embrace their moves as a sign that I am ready to see what their movements reveal.
Kiss the lips below to see other amazing photos from February Photofest 2020