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    Creative Thoughts and Images,  Decisions,  Distress,  Erotic Journal Challenge,  Every Damn Day in June,  Experiences,  Lifestyle,  Memes and Things

    Relax

    Just relax.  Calm down, and everything will work out just fine.  Breathe.  I’m sure we have all heard these phrases of condolences and trying to inspire hope.  I get it.  What else can you say?  Everyone is feeling the pressure from our current state in the world.  Bottom line?  There are no words that induce relaxation. In November of 2019, I adopted a puppy.  He is a German Shepherd puppy.  The last thing I needed was a puppy.  I already had a great dog who had settled in his ways, and we had a good routine.  We could relax as much as we wanted.  The puppy changed that.  He is…

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    Aging,  Decisions,  Distress,  Experiences,  Random thoughts and processing,  Relationship Thoughts Old and New,  Self Love,  Trust

    Love is Saying the Hard Things

    Love is saying the hard things.  Sometimes the hardest things to say are the things that need to be said.  Recently while sharing some whiskey with a friend, he made a comment so significant that it stopped me dead in my tracks. “The problem is T, love is saying the hard things, and you aren’t good at saying the hard things.” Well, fuck me!  The main problem with this was I instantly knew he was right, and that stung a little bit.  In my defense, I don’t like hurting people’s feelings.  I also do not like confrontation.  Put those two together and its a losing combination.  Who looses?  Everyone! I…

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    Decisions,  kinks,  Learning the Hard Way,  Sir/Daddy,  Toy for Sir

    She Wanted to Know

    She wanted to know about him so badly.  There was no one to ask, no one to reach out to, no one to trust. She sat alone in her house.  The house she decorated for him.  Some of his things still in place even if she is the only one that knows they are there.  The carpets she bought so his dog wouldn’t be scared by her hardwood floors.  She wanted to know how he was.  She wanted to know how he was dealing with the world, his world, without her. Time has passed.  A lot of time.  There were days when she was ok.  There were days when she…

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    Decisions,  Learning the Hard Way,  Lifestyle

    Advent

    Advent was something I had only heard at church.  I was raised going to a Methodist church and converted to Catholicism so that my future husband’s mother would come to the wedding.  Yes, she made it clear she would not be there if I didn’t take the leap so I lept. Advent described as the lead up to something.  In the religious realm, the birth of Christ.  Most of that was lost in my family growing up.  Mom wanted us to have a base of religion and Dad only went to church on the holidays he felt he needed to and that stopped when we were old enough not to…

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    Decisions,  Distress,  Learning the Hard Way,  Trust

    I’m sorry

    I’m sorry.  Some people often say that saying “I’m sorry” is difficult.  It doesn’t come easy to some folks.  I don’t understand that because I always say I’m sorry, even when I shouldn’t.  I would say it is almost compulsive.  I apologize to the wall when I bump into it.  I also apologize when other people hurt me.  Clearly, it was something I did that required me to apologize.  That has been my life.  For as long as I can remember I have always apologized first regardless if I was at fault or not. I don’t like making mistakes.  I like hurting people even less.  I have learned that I…