Experiences

My experiences or others experiences that have touched me, taught me, scared me, saddened me, all of which made me grow.

  • expect unexpected white bird on wood post looking to the right water in the background
    Aging,  Experiences,  Medical Related,  Random thoughts and processing

    Expect the Unexpected

    c/w – depression, illness, cancer I have learned through the years to expect the unexpected. I have many types of cancer running through my maternal and paternal family. It was always something I heard about and knew about, and I didn’t know the details as much as I knew that someone else had been diagnosed and died due to cancer. I had a cancer scare when I was about 42 and had some scary biopsies, but it ultimately turned out to be benign. I considered that a bullet missed and went on with life. I wasn’t overly appreciative of the good news; I just felt something else I had gone…

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    BDSM,  Decisions,  Experiences,  kinks,  Learning the Hard Way,  Polyamorous,  Protect Your Heart,  Self Love,  Sir/Daddy,  Toy for Sir

    Good People

    I like good people and want to be around good people. When the past comes knocking on my door, I have never been one to leave it there standing on the porch. I have a lot of shit in my past, but I also feel that I learn from my experiences. I have learned not to live in the past and over the past three years, I have learned to place it in a safe place in my brain. Until now. My breakup with my Dom (first and only) has been a huge part of this blog. Our relationship prior to the breakup has been too. I write my feelings…

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    Aging,  Experiences,  Self Love

    Not Like Me

    It is not like me to post pictures of myself online. Okay, so on this site it is kind of like me, but, the selfies on social media are not like me. For all the times I have looked at myself in pictures and rolled my eyes or headed to the frig for a cake icing and a spoon, you would think this picture would present a different result. Well, it didn’t. I didn’t run to the frig for the cake icing, but the eye roll was real. This picture, and more to follow, is a result of a very spontaneous “boudoir” photoshoot. My friends and I were sitting around…

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    Decisions,  Experiences,  January Jumpstart,  Lifestyle,  Memes and Things,  Open Relationships,  Polyamorous,  Relationship Thoughts Old and New

    Stay the Night

    It had been a while since I shared my bed with someone. Even my Ex-what-ever-he-was never stayed the night with me. I always went to him. Although I had set my house up to his liking just in case, it ever happened. So when my current relationship said he could stay over, I was not only surprised and a little excited, I was also nervous. I haven’t talked much about him because I wasn’t sure where it was going. He is a good guy. Most of them are, but most of them also have issues, baggage, or in my case and history, someone else in their lives. Ugh! It is…

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    Creative Thoughts and Images,  Decisions,  Distress,  Erotic Journal Challenge,  Every Damn Day in June,  Experiences,  Lifestyle,  Memes and Things

    Relax

    Just relax.  Calm down, and everything will work out just fine.  Breathe.  I’m sure we have all heard these phrases of condolences and trying to inspire hope.  I get it.  What else can you say?  Everyone is feeling the pressure from our current state in the world.  Bottom line?  There are no words that induce relaxation. In November of 2019, I adopted a puppy.  He is a German Shepherd puppy.  The last thing I needed was a puppy.  I already had a great dog who had settled in his ways, and we had a good routine.  We could relax as much as we wanted.  The puppy changed that.  He is…