• expect unexpected white bird on wood post looking to the right water in the background
    Aging,  Experiences,  Medical Related,  Random thoughts and processing

    Expect the Unexpected

    c/w – depression, illness, cancer I have learned through the years to expect the unexpected. I have many types of cancer running through my maternal and paternal family. It was always something I heard about and knew about, and I didn’t know the details as much as I knew that someone else had been diagnosed and died due to cancer. I had a cancer scare when I was about 42 and had some scary biopsies, but it ultimately turned out to be benign. I considered that a bullet missed and went on with life. I wasn’t overly appreciative of the good news; I just felt something else I had gone…

  • Aging,  Decisions,  Medical Related,  Self Love,  Thoughts

    Tuck

      As if my life hasn’t presented me with enough decisions and in some way options, I have been grappling with something that I have wanted to do for a long time.  I tend to tuck away my emotions most of the time and handle things on my own so this decision has been dwelling in my brain for quite some time.  To tuck or not to tuck that is the decision. I have grown a great deal in the area of self-love and self-acceptance.  Much of that came from my extinguished D/s relationship.  My fear was when Daddy left me that he would take the confidence he had given me…