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Day 17 – Alone Time
There was a time when my alone time consisted of unhealthy foods and maybe even some alcohol. Mostly unhealthy foods and soda. Over the past three years, I have learned and worked on creating new ways to have alone time that are healthy and more emotionally supportive. I have also found ways to relieve my emotions that won’t eventually come back to cause me more stress than the original stressor. Alone time never use to be a good thing for me. It was too quiet, gave me too much time think with little time to sort my thoughts around the voices that told me I wasn’t good enough. I still…
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Day 16 – Nipples
Nipples respond to so many things but usually in the same way. They perk up and push out to let you know they are responding. My nipples never use to talk to me. I barely knew they were there and they didn’t bring me pleasure at all. It has taken time but now I know what they like when it comes to sexual stimulation and when done right they respond in the most wonderful ways. It used to be that my nipples only got hard when I was cold and even then it was hit or miss. I never understood the big deal about breasts and nipples because mine seemed…
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Day 15 – Birthdays
Birthdays can be difficult for me. It is rare that I walk around in my birthday suit on my birthday. This is because my birthday is in February and we usually have snow and cold weather. Today is chilly and windy so instead of my birthday day suit I had sweat pants and hoodie on. I was sitting at the dining room table and felt something warm on my back. I realized it was the sun. I stood up and looked out the window and while it was still windy the sun was heating the window and the warmth was coming through. It felt amazing. Making me long for Spring…
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Day 14 – Candied Hearts
These little candied hearts are my favorite Valentine’s Day candy. Valentine’s Day has always been awkward for me. When I was younger it meant it was the one day my first day would shop by himself and buy my Mom, Sister and myself a small box of chocolate and a little stuffed animal. He hated shopping and this was the only day he forced himself to go it alone. It was special and I miss those Valentine’s Days. Valentine’s Day is also the day before my birthday so while Dad made it special it was always a prelude to my big day, whatever that looked like year by year. As…
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Day 13 – Black and White
I often hear the phrase, “it is black and white.” Typically this means that whatever the subject up for discussion is clear. There is no misunderstanding and it is exactly what it appears to be. That’s lovely to think there is such a thing but I call bullshit. Black and white as never been clear to me. I can always find the greys and shadows and light. In the guise of different perspectives, different cultures, different beliefs, nothing is black and white or cut and dry. The idioms, one line analogies, and labels we place on things are rarely what it appears to be. It is a shame that we…
