• are you watching tan legs on yellow chair facing a wood fence with grey house visible. Flowers and chain link fence visible with grass yard
    Kink of the Week,  Memes and Things,  Sinful Sunday

    Are You Watching?

    Watching or being watched, which do you prefer. A few years ago I would have answered this question differently. The thought of anyone watching me in any kind of sexual capacity would have made me shudder with anxiety. Looking back now, I see my feeling that way was low self-esteem, bad body image, self-loathing, you get the idea. Watching in the past. A year before I started my first D/s relationship, I met a very nice man. He was adventurous and became a very patient teacher. He talked about things I had never thought of, and some that I had thought about as well. This man respected my hesitance and…

  • white legs open with pink shirt at top of groin area on black blanket
    distress,  Kink of the Week,  Masturbation Monday,  Memes and Things,  Self Love,  Sinful Sunday

    It Is Within Me

    It is within me.  Sleepless nights, brain on overdrive, everything tried, tossing and turning, where are the peace and calm? It is within me.  Hard to find at times, but I can reach it.  Fingers inserted into my pussy to explore and exhaust my physical self.  If I exhaust myself physically, perhaps my mind will rest. Some count sheep and some take sedatives.  I reach for my sole through the means I have learned what works best.  Time for myself.  Time to get lost. I am searching for peace and searching for release. I am tired of waiting for someone else to make it better.  No need for anyone else.  Would…

  • black and white bury shoulder and foot
    Every Damn Day in June,  Every Damn Day In June,  Masturbation Monday,  Memes and Things,  Sinful Sunday

    Our sex

    Our sex is not constant or regular or something to count on.  It is rare and random and last minute.  We have labeled it “coffee and sex”.  He comes over in the morning and we share coffee and catch up on our lives.  We lay on my bed talking about our kids, our stress points, and the things that make us both happy.  We end the conversation always talking about why we don’t see each more often, as we would like to.  Then we stare at each other and he leans in to kiss me. And then it starts.  His kisses are long and strong.  He isn’t Dominant in the…

  • topless one couch side view of woman
    Every Damn Day in June,  Every Damn Day In June,  Memes and Things,  Sinful Sunday

    Lazy afternoons

    Today was a good day.  Lazy afternoons haven’t happened for me lately.  For some reason, I have had the need to keep busy and can’t sit still.  Today, I didn’t do a thing except for my monthly massage.  While the massage was brutal and much needed and I’m sore from it, it was nice to have an afternoon to do nothing. My daughter was working so I had the house to myself.  The alone time was also nice.  After my shower, I sat on the couch with the door open because it was a really nice day outside.  I couldn’t bring myself to go outside, even more of a sign…

  • naked white woman on top, pants the bottom with shoulders and collar bone pronounced
    Memes and Things,  Sinful Sunday

    Shoulders

    Most of the mirrors in my house are pretty high.  Some I hung myself (which is never a good thing) and some are standard and came with the house.  My medicine cabinet in the bathroom is so high that I can truly only see my head and shoulders.  (Again, not necessarily a bad thing).  I have one full-length mirror in my house that sits on my closet door.  This mirror isn’t nice to me so I don’t spend a lot of time with it.   It doesn’t deserve me. As a kid, one of my favorite things to do was swim and it still is.  When I wonder when my…