• darkness and light white women mother daughter both wearing grey clothing blonde hair and smiling for a selfie photo in the car
    Memes and Things,  Mom Moments,  Protect Your Heart,  QuoteQuest,  Self Love

    Darkness

    “Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”~ Brene Brown This quote, as many have stated can bring up a lot inside me. There are so many avenues I could go down with just this one quote. Today, however, I have darkness. In my soul and in my heart. Darkness that is my own, but born from a darkness that is in my daughter. There are never enough words for me to express the love I have for my daughter. It isn’t just love, but respect that she will never believe I have. She has made mistakes. I have…

  • Learning the Hard Way,  Mom Moments,  Random thoughts and processing,  Self Love,  Vanilla,  Writer Block

    Blank Page

    Staring at a blank page has become my norm of late.  It is hard for me to put into words everything I’ve been feeling and not much of it has been sexy, kinky or light-hearted.  There is so much fear in the air that staring at a blank page seems the safest thing for me to do right now. I’d love to say I have notes and a list of wonderful things to write on this blank page but I haven’t even felt compelled to do that.  Life has just been a bitch.  I saw a sign the other day that said something to the effect of “2020 didn’t even…

  • Mom Moments,  Random thoughts and processing,  Vanilla

    Guilt

    Of all the things I struggle to let go of, my guilt for my bad decisions in my life is one of them.  The people my decisions hurt or confused, the consequences my decisions brought to me and others, all boils down to me dealing with my guilt. Last night I had a tough conversation with the girls.  The details I don’t think matter.  It was a conversation brought about by my frustrations over their responses (or lack of responses) to specific requests.  I was tired of having the same conversation over and over, again and again.  It came to a head yesterday and I called a family meeting. I…

  • Experiences,  Mom Moments

    Moving back in with Mom!

    Having my daughter, Ally,  and her girlfriend, Fee, move in with me in June of this year was probably the best thing that could have happened.  I was concerned that the three of us wouldn’t live well together.  Not for any specific reason.  I remember moving back in with my Mom and while we love each other more than words can say, it was a struggle and an adjustment.  After living on your own, it is hard moving back in with Mom.  After living alone, it’s hard to live with anyone!  When my daughter said she wanted to come home, we were both nervous, although I don’t think either of…