Relationship Thoughts Old and New
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Shame
Shame is a hardcore emotion. By hardcore, I mean it is one of the most challenging emotions (for me) to process and let go of. Some hide their shame while others admit it openly, like a confession they feel they need to offer for redemption. I do a little of both. I could say it depends on the situation that the shame comes from. I am not sure that I have come to terms with all the things I have done that made me ashamed of myself or my actions. I fully admit I am not always the best person I can be. I could be a better daughter, mother,…
- Aging, Decisions, Distress, Experiences, Friendship, Learning the Hard Way, Lifestyle, Memes and Things, Mom Moments, Open Relationships, Polyamorous, Protect Your Heart, Relationship Thoughts Old and New, Self Love, Thoughts, Trust, Vanilla, Writings
Unapologetically Me
I am unapologetically me. It has taken me a very long time to get to this point. I am 57 years old. Unfortunately I think this realization has only come to fruition over the last three years. I have made mistakes. Big ones and little ones. I have learned from every single one of those mistakes. Some of these mistakes I made more than once. That I apologize for, but I apologize to myself. I am not evil, and I do not go out and see who I can hurt or ruin. I live my life as the best person that I can be. I try to be honest, and…
- January Jumpstart, Lifestyle, Lustitude, Open Relationships, Polyamorous, Relationship Thoughts Old and New, Trust
Lifestyle
Lifestyle is a term I both love and hate. While not liking labels on a person, I realize that lifestyle is a part of us. That part I like. The part I hate is that saying you have a lifestyle can pigeon hole you to the point that if you deviate from it – you are deviant. I don’t want to stay in any lifestyle or category at this point in my life. I have always hated labels. I find that in each community I enter, others need to place you in a category. When I started dating my ex-wife, I wasn’t gay enough. It was clear that her friends,…
- Decisions, Experiences, January Jumpstart, Lifestyle, Memes and Things, Open Relationships, Polyamorous, Relationship Thoughts Old and New
Stay the Night
It had been a while since I shared my bed with someone. Even my Ex-what-ever-he-was never stayed the night with me. I always went to him. Although I had set my house up to his liking just in case, it ever happened. So when my current relationship said he could stay over, I was not only surprised and a little excited, I was also nervous. I haven’t talked much about him because I wasn’t sure where it was going. He is a good guy. Most of them are, but most of them also have issues, baggage, or in my case and history, someone else in their lives. Ugh! It is…
- Erotic Journal Challenge, kinks, Lifestyle, Memes and Things, Relationship Thoughts Old and New, Self Love, Trust
Inspiration from unexpected sources
I have spent a lot of time looking for and finding inspiration. Inspiration has always come easy to me; it is the follow up that I struggle to conquer. It has taken me a long time to realize that inspiration comes from unexpected sources. I have never been someone to delve into a self-help book for answers. From the best to the worst, I usually finish the book, podcast, or seminar with the feeling that I already knew everything the said. It was just putting it into action that I struggled with finishing. I know in most parts of my life what I need to do. I should eat better…
