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Time Alone
Time alone has always been in a love-hate relationship with me. I way “with me” because I feel like it is an unhealthy relationship sometimes. I feel it is a healthy relationship other times. Knowing the difference has been key in accepting alone time. I enjoy being alone. I enjoy watching TV or reading. I like the downtime when I do not feel like I have to do something. Then again, I always feel like I should be doing something other than sitting. I try to give myself a break and tell myself that I am busy, and if I take some time to settle, that is ok. This kind…
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Walk on the Beach
A walk on the beach is soul cleansing for me. All my senses are engaged, and for some reason, at the first step on the sand, my brain can breathe. I have always loved the beach but didn’t realize its true power until later in life. That is a theme in my life; later in life is where most of my lessons and “clicked.” The ability to look back at the chapters of my life and see the lessons can only happen later when you have the maturity to recognize them. I was never one to walk on the beach in my younger days. I was oiled up and lying…
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Darkness
“Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”~ Brene Brown This quote, as many have stated can bring up a lot inside me. There are so many avenues I could go down with just this one quote. Today, however, I have darkness. In my soul and in my heart. Darkness that is my own, but born from a darkness that is in my daughter. There are never enough words for me to express the love I have for my daughter. It isn’t just love, but respect that she will never believe I have. She has made mistakes. I have…
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Exercise
I have often wondered if exercise is a kink for me. I have a love/hate relationship with it, just as I do some of my kinks so maybe it is safe to say that exercise is also a kink. I have always been active without going to the gym or scheduling a workout. I danced for eight years; tap, ballet, and jazz. I then moved on to karate for 6 years and reached my brown belt level, testing for my green belt when I was eight months pregnant. I played basketball in high school and did gymnastics as well. I never had the habit of purposefully exercising. When kids and…
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Inspiration from unexpected sources
I have spent a lot of time looking for and finding inspiration. Inspiration has always come easy to me; it is the follow up that I struggle to conquer. It has taken me a long time to realize that inspiration comes from unexpected sources. I have never been someone to delve into a self-help book for answers. From the best to the worst, I usually finish the book, podcast, or seminar with the feeling that I already knew everything the said. It was just putting it into action that I struggled with finishing. I know in most parts of my life what I need to do. I should eat better…
