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Fantasies
Fantasies are sometimes more memories I would like to alter. “Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it’s a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope, and that enables you to laugh at life’s realities.” ~ Dr. Seuss Dr. Seuss always has an interesting take on things. I never thought of it this way. Looking through the wrong end of a telescope is a task in itself, I suppose. I do fantasize quite a bit. I am not sure my thoughts are all fantasies, though. I can drift away to a different place and a different world or the other time from a memory easier…
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Are You Watching?
Watching or being watched, which do you prefer. A few years ago I would have answered this question differently. The thought of anyone watching me in any kind of sexual capacity would have made me shudder with anxiety. Looking back now, I see my feeling that way was low self-esteem, bad body image, self-loathing, you get the idea. Watching in the past. A year before I started my first D/s relationship, I met a very nice man. He was adventurous and became a very patient teacher. He talked about things I had never thought of, and some that I had thought about as well. This man respected my hesitance and…
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Darkness
“Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”~ Brene Brown This quote, as many have stated can bring up a lot inside me. There are so many avenues I could go down with just this one quote. Today, however, I have darkness. In my soul and in my heart. Darkness that is my own, but born from a darkness that is in my daughter. There are never enough words for me to express the love I have for my daughter. It isn’t just love, but respect that she will never believe I have. She has made mistakes. I have…
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Exercise
I have often wondered if exercise is a kink for me. I have a love/hate relationship with it, just as I do some of my kinks so maybe it is safe to say that exercise is also a kink. I have always been active without going to the gym or scheduling a workout. I danced for eight years; tap, ballet, and jazz. I then moved on to karate for 6 years and reached my brown belt level, testing for my green belt when I was eight months pregnant. I played basketball in high school and did gymnastics as well. I never had the habit of purposefully exercising. When kids and…
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Lust
Lust isn’t always about sex! Shocking I know, but it is true. We lust after food, a good movie, comfy pants, or no pants at all. We lust after a time when we were younger, thinner, more active. Times when life was easier. We can lust over just about anything! Lust, as it relates to sex, becomes more complicated. Or does it? You can lust over the touch of someone, the sound of their whisper in your ear, or a cuddle on the couch watching a stupid movie that you care nothing about, but, you’re cuddling so you don’t care. This is a lust I have a lot. Don’t we…
