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Beach lessons – Sunday morning thoughts
I didn’t bring the laptop this weekend and hate publishing from my phone but some thoughts can’t wait. It is Sunday morning. It is time for beach lessons. I wanted a tech-free weekend with no responsibilities. The beach has always been my healing reflective place. My therapy. Younger me always thought I had to be on the beach tanning to get that. My older self has learned that things have changed. I have had a rough four years and many parts of those struggles continue. Some will always be in the front of the line and some will move from back to front from time to time. I will feel…
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Punishments, yes or no?
As a submissive, are you willing to allow a Dominant to discipline or punish you in your relationship? Yes, I am willing. At the beginning of this journey, this always puzzled me. I was learning what I liked and didn’t like a little at a time. It was a long process because it was part-time. Most of the conversations were through text or over the phone. Rarely face to face. At the time, that was a blessing for me because I was embarrassed to express my ignorance about many things. But one of the things that I had realized is that I liked spankings. Now I realize I like all…
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While patience is needed
It is hard keeping my mind busy and occupied. I was asked to be patient and left with a long hug and gentle touches. So patient I will be. Why is it the hardest things to do are the things you must do. I want my mind to keep busy. I want my body to keep busy. I really want to crawl into bed and wait for the patience to have paid off. But not everything we want we get. During these times I try and think of what would be the best thing or things to do. What will be appreciated, what will please him, what will benefit us…
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Negotiation
This is interesting for me to think about. I rarely negotiate. I usually go along with the flow and try not to make waves. This comes from my need to make people happy and my fear and disdain of confrontation. When things come up where decisions are to be made I am usually comfortable with voicing my opinion, but rarely force an issue. My Mom is the same way and she is where I get it. She says, (and backs it up with her actions) she picks her battles. If it seriously means something to her she will push the issue or attempt a negotiation, but she picks these times…
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I fear I have ruined you…
What do you say when someone says that to you. I stare into his gorgeous face wrecked with seriousness and sadness. I’m scared to speak as the tears sting my eyes and my chest tightens. Ruined me? How could he think that? Because I’m sad about our situation and struggling with the distance? He looks between me and the computer screen as flashes of light and dark scenes fill the brightly lit room like explosions that match my emotions and the queasiness on my stomach. I feel the physical pain of his words. My mouth waters a warning I may vomit. My body screams and my heart breaks. Ruined me?…
