• seeing double side by side pictures of the same white woman one side wearing a jean jacket, the other side wearing a blue tank top, both smiling same woman with significant weight loss
    February Photofest 2019,  Memes and Things

    Seeing Double

    Seeing double and processing what I see.  Taking pictures of myself for February Photofest 2019 has been fun and challenging and has for the past 21 days had me thinking or rethinking my perspective on my body and my sensuality.  Today, I couldn’t post anything I had taken because they all seemed too revealing, or I wasn’t comfortable with what I saw.  Thinking (or overthinking) about it this morning, I realized it wasn’t just that the photos I had taken were revealing.  It was that when I looked at them I didn’t see sensual, I saw all the flaws that I view in myself.  So, I started going through old…

  • choice black and white photo of back of white woman from shoulders to lower back
    February Photofest 2019,  Memes and Things

    Choice

    I wasn’t given a choice once I gave my consent.  Told to lay on the bed.  Hang my arms off the side.  Spread my legs just a little.  Wait. There is a warm breeze that travels over my body.  His breath?  My skin comes alive with his closeness.  I wait. Was that a noise?  Did he move?  I am not sure.  Quieting my mind so that I can hear him.  I wait. My hair moves.  Did he touch my hair?  I shudder and wait. I feel the heat from his body warming my skin without touch.  He is close, just wait. Please touch me, I scream to myself.  The desire rises…

  • solitude Black and red bedspread off white wall in the back ground back view of naked woman in fetal position
    February Photofest 2019,  Memes and Things

    Solitude

    Solitude is pleasant. Loneliness is not. ~ Anna Neagle Solitude, and knowing the difference between solitude and loneliness is the key to enjoying being alone with yourself.  However, being comfortable with yourself is the key to feeling good in your own skin.  Finding that balance is more difficult for some, but worth the work.  Solitude can be therapy and embracing it can eviscerate loneliness. It is good to know the difference but neither feeling is good or bad.  It is how you feel.  Of course, the ultimate goal is to feel good about yourself and comfortable in your own skin.  You learn to embrace the rolls.  You appreciate the scars because…

  • middle section dark to the left of a naked body where stomach is visible and belly ring is in navel, dark black rose
    February Photofest 2019,  Memes and Things

    Middle Section

    I have made no secret that I am not a fan of my middle section.  The rolls when I am naked and trying to hide them with clothes and the side view… all of it.  I had always wanted that flat gorgeous stomach with a belly ring that dangled and drew the eyes to my middle section.  Also, I always said that I would wait until I lost “all the weight” and get my navel pierced.  For my entire life, I always set my goals based on my weight. One summer at the beach, my daughter wanted a new piercing.  We headed out to our safe place for piercing and tattoos in…

  • creativity black and white silhouette of human figure against the wall
    February Photofest 2019,  Memes and Things,  Sinful Sunday

    Creativity

    In order to be open to creativity, one must have the capacity for constructive use of solitude. One must overcome the fear of being alone.      Rollo May This quote rings very true to me for several reasons.  I have a strange perspective on my own creativity.  At times, I feel like it flows from me like a river.  Other times, it is non-existent.  I know this is true for most people and we, as creatives take what we can get when we can get it. February Photofest 2019 has raised up an old love of mine for photography. For as long as I can remember, I have loved taking pictures.…