• are you watching tan legs on yellow chair facing a wood fence with grey house visible. Flowers and chain link fence visible with grass yard
    Kink of the Week,  Memes and Things,  Sinful Sunday

    Are You Watching?

    Watching or being watched, which do you prefer. A few years ago I would have answered this question differently. The thought of anyone watching me in any kind of sexual capacity would have made me shudder with anxiety. Looking back now, I see my feeling that way was low self-esteem, bad body image, self-loathing, you get the idea. Watching in the past. A year before I started my first D/s relationship, I met a very nice man. He was adventurous and became a very patient teacher. He talked about things I had never thought of, and some that I had thought about as well. This man respected my hesitance and…

  • Experiences,  Kink of the Week,  Memes and Things

    Those little red clothespins tho!

    There are a lot of things that I enjoy that are used to cause pain.  Those little red clothespins tho!  Most of my kink and learning about what I like came from my first and last Dom.  He was much more knowledgable and was also very good at introducing things slowly and carefully.  I remember one time while I was watching his house and he was away with someone else I got nosey.  I admit it.  I use to feel bad about it but fuck it now.  He is gone and while he probably knew he never said anything so he didn’t care.  I didn’t snoop through his financials, or…

  • Kink of the Week,  Memes and Things

    Public Play

    Public play has always been elusive to me.  Part of this is because I am afraid of it.  I am interested in it and at times have wished I had more courage or more confidence to experience it freely the way it should be.  I know myself and know that I would be more worried about what people think than I would be focused on enjoying myself and just being in the moment.  That is how I use to be about sex, in general, all the time.  I am learning to get better and just let go and enjoy myself but it takes time. When I started exploring my kinks…

  • BDSM,  Erotic Journal Challenge,  Experiences,  Sir/Daddy,  Thoughts,  Toy for Sir,  Trust

    Erotic Journal Challenge #7 – Distress

      Erotic Journal Challenge #7 – Distress I am starting the journal Challenge at the current week but will try and catch up on past weeks.  I have always loved this idea and I am looking forward to pushing myself to answer the tough questions and also the fun ones.  This post is about distress.  After reading the prompt I realized my distress comes from a different place. When I think about distress as it relates to my sexual desires there are several different branches to this tree.  When I was younger, first married at 24 years old, I was clueless about what I wanted or what turned me on.…

  • Experiences

    Mature women like sex too!

    I struggle with the title “mature”.  I don’t feel old, so calling myself old doesn’t feel right.  Calling myself mature reminds me of how people explain women that are older so basically the same thing.  It sucks really.  I am in my early 50’s.  They say that 50 is the new 40 but to be honest, I don’t feel 40 either.  That still seems older than I feel.  Most days anyway.  As a latecomer to my sexuality, it is difficult to process sometimes the new things that I am interested in and enjoy.  Bottom line is, mature women like sex too!  Feeling guilty about it doesn’t make sense. Most of…