• Erotic Journal Challenge,  Every Damn Day in June,  Memes and Things

    Love all trust a few

    Over the past few years, my ability to love all and trust has been diminished to nothing.  This makes me sad because I use to be a very trusting person.  I trusted that people (most people) were honest and good and truly trying to be good people.  Trying to be a good person myself, I naturally assumed others were doing the same.  Wrong.  Trusting people has hurt me.  Loving people have hurt me.  Trying to do both equally has proven impossible. Love all, trust a few.   I saw this written out today and instantly knew I had to borrow it for a post.  (I believe that it is a…

  • Decisions,  Distress,  Experiences,  kinks,  Lifestyle


    This is another tough one for me.  It goes back far into my childhood and I still struggle with friendships.  I have learned over the years, and most recently the hardest lesson, those friendships are precious.  Really good friendships are hard to come by. It is normal to have people come and go in your life.  It is sometimes working to keep in touch and it takes both parties to make that happen.  I had always felt I was the only one working on it most times.  Taking some time off from constantly reaching out to those that had drifted away, I found myself feeling pretty lonely.  It showed me…

  • white woman blonde hair bare breast with red robe off the shoulders
    February Photofest 2019,  Memes and Things

    Photos! – Day 28!

    The last day of February Photofest 2019.  This was an amazing experience for me.  I have to admit I was terrified and had no idea if I would survive, or even finish it.  I wouldn’t have seen this through the 28 days without the support of this amazing community!  More than the experience of this special growth I have realized (most unexpected) was reading others’ words, and experiencing others’ thoughts and feelings and the beauty in the photos that everyone shared.  The journey is still a long way to go, but this has started growth and a change of perspective, on my inner self and my body image.  Here’s to…

  • the sea blue and white ocean in view with sand visible and two feet crossed at the ankle
    February Photofest 2019,  Memes and Things

    The sea

    The sea, once it casts its spell, holds one in its net of wonder forever.  – Jacques Cousteau The sea, ocean, bay, whatever body of water is available is my favorite place to be.  February Photofest happens in a cold month with makes outdoor nature photos tough for a girl on the east coast.  So, I went through and found a picture from the past that was a warm and happy day.   A girl can dream!  Stretched on a blanket with the sun on my face and the warmth of the breeze from the sea I imagined you with me.  Your hand gently rubbing my body because you know…

  • Mom Moments,  Random thoughts and processing,  Vanilla


    Of all the things I struggle to let go of, my guilt for my bad decisions in my life is one of them.  The people my decisions hurt or confused, the consequences my decisions brought to me and others, all boils down to me dealing with my guilt. Last night I had a tough conversation with the girls.  The details I don’t think matter.  It was a conversation brought about by my frustrations over their responses (or lack of responses) to specific requests.  I was tired of having the same conversation over and over, again and again.  It came to a head yesterday and I called a family meeting. I…