• working out white women with green halter top and green leggings stomach showing feeling sexy
    February Photo Fest 2021,  February Photofest 2021,  Self Love

    Working Out or Working it Out

    There are times when my day goes perfectly. I get up, shower, take care of the dog, do some workouts, and get my workday started. This is a good day. They don’t happen often. Most days, I haven’t slept well, struggle through four alarms, thank the universe that I pre-set the coffee, sit at my desk, and try to pretend I’m ready. On these days, which happen more often, I am lucky if I brush my teeth in the morning. I feel better after I work out. Whether it is yoga, or something more intense, I feel good. More importantly, I feel sexy. I have always wished that I was…

  • Aging,  Decisions,  Medical Related,  Self Love,  Thoughts

    Tuck

      As if my life hasn’t presented me with enough decisions and in some way options, I have been grappling with something that I have wanted to do for a long time.  I tend to tuck away my emotions most of the time and handle things on my own so this decision has been dwelling in my brain for quite some time.  To tuck or not to tuck that is the decision. I have grown a great deal in the area of self-love and self-acceptance.  Much of that came from my extinguished D/s relationship.  My fear was when Daddy left me that he would take the confidence he had given me…

  • naked white woman on top, pants the bottom with shoulders and collar bone pronounced
    Memes and Things,  Sinful Sunday

    Shoulders

    Most of the mirrors in my house are pretty high.  Some I hung myself (which is never a good thing) and some are standard and came with the house.  My medicine cabinet in the bathroom is so high that I can truly only see my head and shoulders.  (Again, not necessarily a bad thing).  I have one full-length mirror in my house that sits on my closet door.  This mirror isn’t nice to me so I don’t spend a lot of time with it.   It doesn’t deserve me. As a kid, one of my favorite things to do was swim and it still is.  When I wonder when my…

  • 30 Days of D/s,  Learning the Hard Way,  Thoughts

    Labels

    Beyond the basic title of Dominant or Submissive, are there other titles you prefer or are interested in exploring? Entering in this new type of relationship I had no idea how many layers and labels were out there.  Submissive seemed to define me because I am just that submissive.  After being around and through some reading I am learning of the different labels that are out there.  I get conflicted at times but remind myself they are what and as they relate to me and my relationship and what they mean to me is not what they mean to others necessarily. Daddy started calling me Toy (when I still called…

  • BDSM,  Learning the Hard Way,  Thoughts,  Toy for Sir,  Writings

    I fear I have ruined you…

    What do you say when someone says that to you. I stare into his gorgeous face wrecked with seriousness and sadness. I’m scared to speak as the tears sting my eyes and my chest tightens. Ruined me? How could he think that? Because I’m sad about our situation and struggling with the distance? He looks between me and the computer screen as flashes of light and dark scenes fill the brightly lit room like explosions that match my emotions and the queasiness on my stomach. I feel the physical pain of his words. My mouth waters a warning I may vomit. My body screams and my heart breaks. Ruined me?…