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Entrance
Entrance into my body is permitted with consent and willingness. I feel complete. Three weeks of no touching, no fucking, no contact except for text and zoom calls, today was much needed. Long-distance relationships, regardless of their structure or distance, are complex. I am learning to deal with it, but it still sucks. There are long days and weekends when we feel disconnected. We wonder if we are thinking about each other, missing each other, or fucking others. We have made our agreements and dealt with our situation as best as possible. The most challenging part is not showing others how we are feeling inside. The best part of a…
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Waiting
Waiting is the worst part of a long-distance relationship. It is always worth the wait, regardless of how difficult the delay is. His attention, his touch, his strength are worth whatever I have to go through until we see each other again. I have found ways to busy myself while I wait for the next time, which can never come too soon for me. Our power exchange is not what most people typically think of when discussing the D/s relationship. Yes, we have obvious dominant and submissive roles, and those lines are rarely blurred. Our play is consensual, and it is satisfying to both of us. What I have come…
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Dagger
I swore I wasn’t going to write about you anymore. I closed the door and locked it securely – or so I thought. But today, today hit me in the heart like a dagger. A feeling I thought I would never experience again. Sadly, I was wrong once again. Apparently, I will never be able to forget the experience of this dagger. The unseen sharpness that slices through my skin with invisibility, piercing my heart with expert precise movement, never failing to hit its mark. This dagger is elusive, sneaky, stealthy. The moment I think I have buried it, lost it, destroyed it, it returns to me out of nowhere.…
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D/s 24/7?
Do you want to go to 24/7 at some point? I have always thought that I did. Now I am not so sure. Why or why not? My one and only experience in D/s was long distance and under cover of sorts. I enjoyed the idea of things, but I am not sure I would classify it as D/s. I enjoy doing things for people. I enjoy having tasks and things that I need to do. It makes me feel productive when I have a list of things to do and I accomplish them. This is me, and I am not sure if it is solely D/s. Having said that,…
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When a D/s relationship ends…
This was today’s thought-provoking email. I don’t know how to respond to this one. On Monday, my Sir told me we were through. I made a mistake. A big one. He responded with the heat and temper I had witnessed but it was never directed at me. Through text, he told me I was manipulative and I had hurt him too much, he was done. He even said “fuck you, T…” using my real name and not the name he gave me. He is furious, done with me and has not spoken to me since. He told me to move on. Devastated doesn’t cover it. I am mourning not only…
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