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    Unapologetically Me

    I am unapologetically me. It has taken me a very long time to get to this point. I am 57 years old. Unfortunately I think this realization has only come to fruition over the last three years. I have made mistakes. Big ones and little ones. I have learned from every single one of those mistakes. Some of these mistakes I made more than once. That I apologize for, but I apologize to myself. I am not evil, and I do not go out and see who I can hurt or ruin. I live my life as the best person that I can be. I try to be honest, and…

  • Trust black square with the word in yellow trust doesn't come with a refill. Once its gone, you probably won't get it back and if you do it will never be the same & that's a fact
    January Jumpstart,  Open Relationships,  Polyamorous,  Random thoughts and processing

    Trust

    Trust is something that comes naturally, right? From the moment we are born, we trust that those around us will take care of us. Our parents will make sure we are safe, fed, clothed, and warm. Once that trust is broken, it isn’t easy to find our comfort zone trusting again. It doesn’t matter if it is in your personal or professional life. Once that trust is lost, it is hard to get that trust back. I have tried twice to join established couples in a way to dip my toe into the “open relationship” or “polyamorous” communities. Both times were epic failures, and I ended up hurt, trust broken,…

  • Optimistic optimism cartoon turtle upside down on his back with words I'm flying green grass blue sky white clouds caption balloon
    January Jumpstart,  Memes and Things

    Optimistic

    An optimistic approach to sex came tome later in life than I would like to admit. I can call it generational, cultural, or anything else I could blame, but it is my past, and I can’t change that. However, I move forward with a more optimistic view that I have a blank canvas to create my own sexual story. It wasn’t until my first divorce that I realized the reason I didn’t like sex could be because I hadn’t had good sex. It is of no fault of my partners (few that they were), more that I hadn’t allowed myself to enjoy it. I always worried if I was doing…

  • black and white photo with woman on floor with flogger and type print at the bottom
    Memes and Things,  QuoteQuest

    You Did This

    “The thing is that you brought this out in me. How could I want it with anyone else” – JM Storm Yes, you did this.  You opened a part of me I wasn’t aware of and made me feel I was worth the time and effort you took to educate me.  You created experiences for me that made my heart and soul sore.  You managed to make me allow myself to see the good in me.  The curves were ok.  The scars were sexy.  Age wasn’t an issue.  The history of hurt and rejection was just that, the past.  You did this amazing thing.  Then you made it all disappear with…

  • Masturbation Monday,  Memes and Things

    Shaving for an S

    She rose early that day, excited to shower.  Strange, she hadn’t felt this way for quite a while.  She undressed and climbed under the hot water.  This day there wasn’t sadness and loneliness.  There was a touch of risk.  She was trusting again.  She was hopeful again.  Shaving was on the agenda. She let the water run over her and reached for the body wash.  She lathered up running her hands over her body.  Slower than what her normal has been for the past year or so.  She rubbed her breast and pinched her nipples feeling a familiar tingle between her thighs.  It felt good. For the first time in…